Claiming a Claim, Demanding an Explaination~
" i've kept it in my brilliant void memory that in the process of blogging i may hurt people that i love and care about but what must be written must to be written"
Wtf... i'm kinda disappointed with the way some people treasure friendship. i always thought that friendship is beyond all these trivial matters and what matters most is the understanding behind all of these. i would go all out to help my friends keeping in mind that my friends might not be there when i need them. regardless of what people say. but all i ask is a lil bit of friendship in return. it's not too much to ask is it? wtf....wtf... feelin' damn insecure now. shit...hate this feeling. never like it when friends treat me this way. anyway, maybe i shud ask myself again and again, what friendship truly means.
I hope you(you know who you are) know that I care about you and that I HATE being treated this way. I dun know whut to call it, being immature or as a matter of fact I guess you must have your unquestionable reasons for treating me this way, and I am in no position to question your faultless reason for treating me the way your treating me now. All of my care and friendship has ended up in an unfallible bottomless pit, constantly longing for an explaination of whys? hows? and whens?
Although you might think that my way of conveying my feelings are a lil too revealing but i guess no one appreciates my sense of nonsense once i start uttering logical but utterly dumb words. thus, being people as we all are, illogical, self-centred and undenialbly selfish, there is no one to judge the degree of perfection in which the One above has grant us, and along the way, we do make mistakes, mistakes that shud not have been done. but i guess, a lil forgiveness wouldn't hurt either would it?
as of today, 17/07/06, i basically don't give a f*** what people think anymore, if you think you can handle me, then by all means, be my friend, and if you don't value friendship the way i value mine, so be it; stay away. and with these last few months of my life here in malaysia, i would not want a complete brainless mistake of mine to ruin a perfectly good friendship.
" Life is nasty, too short and bestial to let a second pass by which makes you feel like a complete jerk"
~ Thanks edihan for being there for me.
Wtf... i'm kinda disappointed with the way some people treasure friendship. i always thought that friendship is beyond all these trivial matters and what matters most is the understanding behind all of these. i would go all out to help my friends keeping in mind that my friends might not be there when i need them. regardless of what people say. but all i ask is a lil bit of friendship in return. it's not too much to ask is it? wtf....wtf... feelin' damn insecure now. shit...hate this feeling. never like it when friends treat me this way. anyway, maybe i shud ask myself again and again, what friendship truly means.
I hope you(you know who you are) know that I care about you and that I HATE being treated this way. I dun know whut to call it, being immature or as a matter of fact I guess you must have your unquestionable reasons for treating me this way, and I am in no position to question your faultless reason for treating me the way your treating me now. All of my care and friendship has ended up in an unfallible bottomless pit, constantly longing for an explaination of whys? hows? and whens?
Although you might think that my way of conveying my feelings are a lil too revealing but i guess no one appreciates my sense of nonsense once i start uttering logical but utterly dumb words. thus, being people as we all are, illogical, self-centred and undenialbly selfish, there is no one to judge the degree of perfection in which the One above has grant us, and along the way, we do make mistakes, mistakes that shud not have been done. but i guess, a lil forgiveness wouldn't hurt either would it?
as of today, 17/07/06, i basically don't give a f*** what people think anymore, if you think you can handle me, then by all means, be my friend, and if you don't value friendship the way i value mine, so be it; stay away. and with these last few months of my life here in malaysia, i would not want a complete brainless mistake of mine to ruin a perfectly good friendship.
" Life is nasty, too short and bestial to let a second pass by which makes you feel like a complete jerk"
~ Thanks edihan for being there for me.
posted by dearest_beloved at 2:31 PM
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